Office by Alex Penny
regal. random, one cheesy shimmering moon.
I’m taking my babysteps in this writer’s world..
I need all the wisdom, power & love provided to fulfill the calling, dear Lord, would you please always grant moi? Thank you :’)
When you say you’re sorry..
cuz you feel like you’re hurting moi,
And the sorry if you did something wrong, (and you insist, even I’ve tried to convince you, you don’t hurt me, really don’t. And even I was confused what things you do me wrong?)
When you make a promise that you’ll change your wrongdoing, (and you keep insist, even I don’t know what it is & I’ve tried to explain that it’s okay not to reach expectations cuz expectations, unlike hope, are mean, but you insist.)
That you’re learning and trying not to breaking & hurting moi.. :’)
And of course, THAT last sentence with my complete full name on it.. :”)
Thank you..
So much..
I will fight to keep this trust, commitment & hope as long as I can & am permitted by Him..
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Ltc
Stupid or naïve but this is true..
Please don’t go breaking my heart. :)
Yes. It is.
But sometimes, like today,
The simplicity is just not enough.
I wanted more. I needed more.
But it is what it is. What it was.
I guess I’ll never get what I want, what I expect.
And I desperately need to learn to live with it.. Deal with the unwanted feeling.
Make peace with own self..
I’m so greedy even when I still have no right to. Tsk.
I doubt myself thousand times and no thing, no one comfort moi.
Ja, None knows.
I scratched the give up option.
I set the blurry-but-bright goals.
I said I chose.
I laugh at my stupidities (including this piece, one day)
I learn. A lot.
I sacrifice
I embarrassed
I bear those silence
I try, & try, & try
But still not enough for moi
& maybe will never ever be enough..
& since I love you, it hurts.
But it doesn’t mean I can’t live with constant ‘pain’. ha. ha.
Ah. Dare I?
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Exp.Let’s make the pledge from the beginning…
That we’ll never EVER give up on each other, whatever or however hard the circumstances
That divorce is not an option.
That we’ll be as happy as we’re young (& will have the 2nd or 3rd or 4th honeymoon :p) when we’re left by our grown ups children…
Cross your heart, I’m crossing mine! :) .
My first tattoo, done by Joe Finch at Ink By Finch.
It says ‘Expecto Patronum’, a spell in Harry Potter which has deep meanings for me.
From the first time I read the book and the spell came out I already fell in love with the concept and ideology that J.K. Rowling came up with.The spell actually means ‘I await for a protector” in Latin.
In the Harry Potter itself, ‘Expecto Patronum” is used to repel Dementors. Dementor is the guard of the Azkaban prison, a dark creature that absorbs your joy and happiness. So, in other words, the spell is used to repel all the bad aura that wants to steal happiness from me.The unique thing about it is, if you want to cast the spell, you have to think of things that make you happy. The happier your memory is, the stronger your patronus will be.
That’s what I hope I will see every time I look at my tattoo, the pictures of places I’ve been to, my good friends, families, and all the good memories I’ve had with them.
I got them all in my arm as my Patronus.
So, what’s your strongest Patronus?
Not gonna have one but I love the concept behind the making & also the font of this art. Bravo, Fernando!
(via directsleepingpill)
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one little devastator thing in le corner of le heart